About What I Know

Well, it's been quite a long time since I wrote an writing in English. 

I've wanted to throw myself into English and be immersed in full of English, but at the same time, I didn't want to.

it is because I felt I wasn't making any progress, which is the harmful thought that made the process of learning English distressing.

So, what I'm doing is to write my thoughts and feelings in English being conscious of the fact that I can manage to write words in English by considering my English skill that has been improved.

What I longed to express in this writing is that I felt extremely disappointed about the fact that there is nothing I know.

It was a strong confrontation between my rationality and existence. I've thought the way I should be on is the way that I've always wanted to live.

However, yesterday the way broke into unknown and unrecognisable pieces, which is the point where I feel devastated.

After all, there is only one thing that I can definitely say. This is there is nothing I know. 

I used to hide myself behind the reality that I didn't want to face.

I can't a hundred percent assure that I will never hide and reveal my shame and vulnerability itself. 

Even though it is the case in which I am, I won't give up finding myself so that I could offer love and be loved.